The French Family: April 2009

So I must say this week has definitely been an interesting one!! On Monday we decided to go to Fetal Photos to find out what are baby is. Right off the bat they were positive that "IT'S" actually a GIRL!!! I'm so excited. I can't wait to have another little soccer player!! :p And Zach is SUPER excited!! He is so cute with his nieces, I can't even imagine how amazing of a dad he is going to be.

Right now he is making such a huge sacrifice by leaving us and going to Florida for 4 months. It's gonna be really hard, especially dealing with the baby alone. But we have a huge support system, our families are so great for helping us both through this. Its gonna be a long, hard, bumpy road, but were strong and can make it through this!!

We dropped Zach off last night at the airport. That was the hardest thing I've ever done! Just watch the most important thing in my life walk away. I know it could be a lot worse, but to not know when I might see him again sucks!! I know he is safe though, and I get to visit, and I get to talk to him everyday, and its only a couple of months, it's not like its a year or two. But man this sucks!! The house is so quiet, and the dogs can definitely tell that something is up. I just hope everything goes to plan, and this will all be such a positive experience. And hopefully be over before you know it!!

So just to keep you all informed. We got to hear the baby's heartbeat at our last doctors appointment. It was so amazing!! It didn't make it any more real that it existed, I think it was just more so of a shock. Just knowing that this little tiny thing is actually moving and has functioning organs and everything. I have to say that was one of the biggest days in my life. There is no turning back, and we are just so excited to be a mom and dad.

Then came April 10th. :(

We had to make a trip to the E.R. That was the longest trip to the hospital that is only about a mile away! I had started bleeding pretty bad. During the whole pregnancy so far I haven't bled or anything. Its seemed to be a piece of cake other than being tired. So I didn't know what was going on and wasn't prepared to be told we were going to loose the baby, especially when im going to be without zach for the next 18 weeks. I was so overwhelmed with all these things running through my head all at once, I thought I was dying. So at the hospital they did a few exams and said everything appeared to look good, and that they were going to do an ultrasound. We've been anticipating an ultrasound since we found out I was pregnant. And here we are about to do one to see if we were still even going to have a baby! That was the scariest thing of my life! They brought in the machine and everything went great! I thought I had a jumping bean in my belly!! I'm not anticipating feeling it in the next couple of weeks! It was such a relief to see it moving and a nice strong heartbeat! It was the most AMAZING feeling in the world! It made me realize all the things in life you take for granted, and that you need to enjoy the simple things. And just how important everyone is to me, and that my entire family is backing us up 110%! I love you guys!!

Well the countdown for Zach leaving has begun! He Leaves in 2 weeks and 1 day. I'm so not ready! So many people tell me how they would love to have a break from their husbands, and it makes me crazy!! I don't see how anyone would be okay with not being with the person that they have chosen to spend the rest of their life with f0r 4 months!! I just don't know if our love is just so young and exciting and we have so much going on that makes it so hard, or if people are just crazy! I'd like to lean toward its other people being crazy. But I can't see ever being sick of him that I just wouldn't care. I can count exactly how many days there has been that we haven't seen eachother since we started dating, and it was when I was in Hawaii and his recent Vegas trip. Other than that we have been inseparable. We're partners in crime, we're best friends, and we've been through a lot together, and I can't see how i'm gonna survive 1/3 of the year without him! But i'm gonna quit whining! And the next blog is the sex of the baby!! Yay!