6 Weeks and counting!!

So, I'm really doing horrible at this. The main reason why I started to do this is so I had something to really remember being pregnant with Jordan. And I thought with Zach being gone that I really would have time to get it done. I guess I'm really keeping myself a little more occupied than what I thought!

So now I'm just shy of 21 weeks! Man time has just flown by!! I cant believe that we get to meet our little princess in 4 months! I've been definitely feeling overwhelmed. Starting to think that i hardly have anything done. Her rooms painted, blinds and curtains up, and just a few decorations. And her crib is set up and her bouncer. And thats about it! So I'm really starting to freak out! I know somehow we always make things come together and make things perfect.

It's definitely been hard doing all this by myself. I know how much Zach would love to be here and help with every last detail. I just know we would sit there and just stare at her crib and say Holly Crap!! And just kiss and hold each other. Instead its just me looking around and just kinda nodding my head and saying okay good job, and shutting the door. It sucks. But hey thats life for you. No one ever said it was easy.

I was able to go visit with Zach a few weeks back. Oh man Florida is weird!!! They have lizards and frogs everywhere! Its just like us seeing seaguls in Utah. Its really gross. Lol. But it's just so beautiful and green. We went to St. Augistine, and did the little tourist thing there. That was fun. It was nice just to be together somewhere we werent going to be bothered and was just me and him. And the last night I was there he was able to feel the baby moving around. You could just see the excitement in his face! It made my heart melt. I know he is going to be such a good daddy, and she is gonna be a daddys girl for sure!! Man I miss that kid! I know he would do really awesome with this job, but he has SO MANY elements against him. It sucks. And it'll be hard for him to find a job A month before Jordan is here. And I'm not gonna drop the big E word of why everyone thinks everything sucks! Lol. But we'll figure something out. We always do...

The baby and Florida

So I must say this week has definitely been an interesting one!! On Monday we decided to go to Fetal Photos to find out what are baby is. Right off the bat they were positive that "IT'S" actually a GIRL!!! I'm so excited. I can't wait to have another little soccer player!! :p And Zach is SUPER excited!! He is so cute with his nieces, I can't even imagine how amazing of a dad he is going to be.

Right now he is making such a huge sacrifice by leaving us and going to Florida for 4 months. It's gonna be really hard, especially dealing with the baby alone. But we have a huge support system, our families are so great for helping us both through this. Its gonna be a long, hard, bumpy road, but were strong and can make it through this!!

We dropped Zach off last night at the airport. That was the hardest thing I've ever done! Just watch the most important thing in my life walk away. I know it could be a lot worse, but to not know when I might see him again sucks!! I know he is safe though, and I get to visit, and I get to talk to him everyday, and its only a couple of months, it's not like its a year or two. But man this sucks!! The house is so quiet, and the dogs can definitely tell that something is up. I just hope everything goes to plan, and this will all be such a positive experience. And hopefully be over before you know it!!

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Its getting closer!!

So just to keep you all informed. We got to hear the baby's heartbeat at our last doctors appointment. It was so amazing!! It didn't make it any more real that it existed, I think it was just more so of a shock. Just knowing that this little tiny thing is actually moving and has functioning organs and everything. I have to say that was one of the biggest days in my life. There is no turning back, and we are just so excited to be a mom and dad.

Then came April 10th. :(

We had to make a trip to the E.R. That was the longest trip to the hospital that is only about a mile away! I had started bleeding pretty bad. During the whole pregnancy so far I haven't bled or anything. Its seemed to be a piece of cake other than being tired. So I didn't know what was going on and wasn't prepared to be told we were going to loose the baby, especially when im going to be without zach for the next 18 weeks. I was so overwhelmed with all these things running through my head all at once, I thought I was dying. So at the hospital they did a few exams and said everything appeared to look good, and that they were going to do an ultrasound. We've been anticipating an ultrasound since we found out I was pregnant. And here we are about to do one to see if we were still even going to have a baby! That was the scariest thing of my life! They brought in the machine and everything went great! I thought I had a jumping bean in my belly!! I'm not anticipating feeling it in the next couple of weeks! It was such a relief to see it moving and a nice strong heartbeat! It was the most AMAZING feeling in the world! It made me realize all the things in life you take for granted, and that you need to enjoy the simple things. And just how important everyone is to me, and that my entire family is backing us up 110%! I love you guys!!

Well the countdown for Zach leaving has begun! He Leaves in 2 weeks and 1 day. I'm so not ready! So many people tell me how they would love to have a break from their husbands, and it makes me crazy!! I don't see how anyone would be okay with not being with the person that they have chosen to spend the rest of their life with f0r 4 months!! I just don't know if our love is just so young and exciting and we have so much going on that makes it so hard, or if people are just crazy! I'd like to lean toward its other people being crazy. But I can't see ever being sick of him that I just wouldn't care. I can count exactly how many days there has been that we haven't seen eachother since we started dating, and it was when I was in Hawaii and his recent Vegas trip. Other than that we have been inseparable. We're partners in crime, we're best friends, and we've been through a lot together, and I can't see how i'm gonna survive 1/3 of the year without him! But i'm gonna quit whining! And the next blog is the sex of the baby!! Yay!

Gone to Las Vegas...

So, here is an introduction to our lives up to date... Zach and I have known each other since we were little. Both of our families have great relationships with each other. Of coarse we didn't really pay mind to each other until we both were in High School. We were both dating other people at the time, yet we still managed to have time to create a great friendship/relationship. Well we both broke it off with our other relationships and decide to start our own together. I must say his went a lot faster and easier than mine!! While he started to go to UVSC now UVSU, I was getting through High School. Somehow with Zach going to school in Orem full time and working full time and myself going through school, playing sports and working part time we always found time in every single day to spend with each other! We were inseparable! The only time we had ever spent apart was when I went to Hawaii with my soccer team for a week. And we thought that was rough!

In 2006 Zach finished college and that following month I started Cosmetology school. That summer we decided that it was time to find a place of our own. We searched for what seemed like forever! We later signed on our first home in November and moved in mid December.

And like they say, the first year is DEFINITELY the hardest!! We went through a lot!! Heart aches, heartbreaks and deaths in the family all within 3 months. Just when you believe that you truly are young and invisible, life likes to throw you a curve ball!

To fast forward a little bit... In January of 2008 we got our animal! We got our cute little pit bull puppy Gauge! Then for my graduation present we got Roxy, our cute little chihuahua! They are Zach and I's entire world. You could go ahead and say that they are spoiled. We'll be the first to admit it! I couldn't believe that I FINALLY finished cosmetology school!! I had to do so much overtime to make sure I got done that summer! I wasn't wasting another minute in that building!!

Well so now its 2009. We have just gotten married on March 13th. It was the best day of our lives!! Well possibly the second best. Exactly a month before 2/13/09 we found out that we will be having our first child!! That day was pretty awesome!! I couldn't tell you the feeling of joy and excitement you get from peeing on a stick! Lol. Both of our families are really excited and already cannot wait to meet him/her! On the 31st we get the chance to hear the heartbeat. I know I'm going to lose it!!

And since life is never on my side,... Zach is currently in Vegas working. This is our first week as a married couple and he is gone! :( To make things even better.... Zach will be in Florida from May 1st to September 1st! I'll go see him occasionaly. We honestly didn't think him being gone during the pregnancy would be a big deal. I'm really regretting that! I feel this overwhelming sense of love and happiness when I think of our child that we are about to share, and he won't even get to be part of the whole process. Hopefully things go really well, and I can just go live with him after a month or so. I know I'm going to take it really hard, and it's not going to be safe for the baby! Maybe one day, hopefully soon, we will get a break, and things will go right, and we can both enjoy this amazing time of our lives together...